To my friend who provided glue,

Oh heavens where to start. I used to keep my circle so big. In fact I’m not even sure if it was a circle. But in the midst of losing my self and losing what I stood for, I found some people. Now there were people that pissed me off; they told me to leave when I wasn’t quite ready. So here I am officially apologizing because I see you wanted better for me. I just was not ready. And some people made me mad because they told me the truth when I refuse to listen. And I am sorry I believed him over you, I heard you but I listened to him. And I am sincerely so grateful for you being honest to me when others would not.

Like I said in the midst of losing myself some people were found. They helped me reset the path I needed to walk on to get back to me. And if you’re one, you should know who you are, but a thank you is needed. I am not sure how to say it other than I am grateful.

Oh how, I love you. And I understand some days I am a lot to take on. I also understand I’m extra. I know. But you took me on at points and said “I have you’re back.” The days I needed a hug from my mama and she was gone, you took me in with the warmest arms. And held me until I could pick my head back up.

You taught me to laugh again. At first I didn’t know how. I lost that part of me and was just quiet. You showed me how to be loud, and seen, and PRESENT. My laugh is different than it use to be but you explained to me that after trauma, the joy comes back differently. Genuine joy sounds different because you appreciate it so much more. Thank you for teaching me.

Oh how I love how you continued to show up for me. Two months out, three months, six months, and even now a year later. You’ve been there. You have kept being here for it all. And that means more to me than you will ever know. Thank you. Just thank you for never giving up on me and hold me down when I needed to be grounded and lifting me up when I needed confidence.

I can’t tell you how much you carrying me and holding my hand and being present has meant to me. You’re a soul saving Angel sent to help me in my journey of life.

I love you my dear,

Al-Pal

P.S. drinks soon?